Halifax Tummy Tuck

As if surgery isn’t scary enough, opting to do something that I technically could live without feels a little bit, um, INSANE. There’s no denying that every procedure comes with risks, and abdominoplasty or tummy tuck is major surgery.

At the absolute worst, of course, I have panicked about dying under anaesthesia (highly unlikely) and I have pretty serious fears about whether or not I’ll be happy with the results (highly likely I will be happy).

But, the fears? They are many.

I won’t be able to be an active mom while I recover.

Not lifting and playing with my kids is like not breathing for me (and them, tbh). It’s not uncommon for me to carry both E and S at the same time, or to roll around on the floor lifting them up to play airplane or pretend wrestle. For six weeks, that’s all a no-go.

I’ll be lifting them again (I HOPE) by Christmas.

I’m going to be reliant on other people for a while.

I hate needing to rely on other people because I don’t like feeling like a burden. Knowing that I’ll need help to do the simplest things, like getting in and out of bed or going to the bathroom for the first few days is frustrating and I haven’t even gotten there yet.

I also won’t be able to drive, carry groceries or laundry, or possibly even sit up in a chair for a while.

I’m scared of the pain.

And equally fearful of taking painkillers.

Though I generally believe I have a pretty high pain tolerance, I’ve never had surgery before and I have no idea what to expect for how I will cope post-op.

I hate sitting around.

Tied into this is my very real fear of losing the progress I’ve made over the last few months with my fitness and health. I know I’ll be setting myself back while I recover and, while I also know I’ll bounce forward again pretty quickly, I’m bummed.

It is very much my own inclination to push boundaries (especially mine) and I do worry that I will do what I do and push it too soon. (If someone can hold me accountable to that, that’d be greaaaaaaaat.)

I’m scared this is a slippery slope.

The first time I had Botox or filler, I was convinced that I’d never be a person who wanted more. And then, suddenly, I was. While an extra unit or two of Botox isn’t a big deal, surgeries are! I’m (perhaps irrationally?) worried that I’ll want additional surgeries or work done.

I’m terrified of the scar.

The abdominoplasty scar runs from hip to hip, which is not a small length for a scar to run. I know it will look angry and red for a while, but I do worry that it will be noticeable forever.

(I’ll be using silicon strips, red light therapy, and Bio Oil – when the time is right!!!! – to support the appearance of my scar after I’m healed)

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Before I went for my consultation, I had some other fears – learn about them in my post on What Happened at the Consult!